Finding out

I can’t help but think about you

Everything was different with you

I don’t know why and how though

It just was

Maybe it was the endless ways

You could make me smile

Maybe it was the endless

Ways of you trying to figure me out 

Everything was different with you

That was until certain events happened

You told me you didn’t want a relationship

You weren’t ready for one

I was okay with that

I was okay with just being friends

I still had feelings for you though

It was hard because you still wanted to be with me

It made it even harder though

Because you still hugged me

When I was leaving

And we still talked like we were more than friends

All of that changed drastically

In a matter of one day

Did you think I wouldn’t find out

Find out you had lied to me

Did you think it didn’t matter

If I found out that you lied

Did you think of how I would feel

If I found out

It hurt finding out you lied

Not ready for a relationship

Don’t think that was right

You were already in one

Don’t ask how I found out

I’m good at figuring things out

But now I have to move on

Leave you in my past

Thanks though

Because of you

I have realized

Just how strong I am

This poem i wrote out raw emotion a song triggered some memories that i have kind of been sticking on the back burner and not really dealing with them so i figured that writing was the best way for me to get them out and sort through them without having to cry. Writing has and always will be my outlet of my emotions.

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I haven't titled this writing yet, only because i haven't been able to think of an appropriate title for it.

Why is it she gets nervous around him?

She wants to kiss him

But then thinks of reasons why she can’t

It’s the nerves that she tries to hide

She wants this to be something more

Than just staying friends

She can’t define it though

She doesn’t know where she stands

She hasn’t figured out why she feels like this

It’s like something has changed inside of her

The hugs feel so right like she’s supposed to be there

She smiles more and laughs at almost everything again

She’s falling for him more and more each day

Yet she doesn’t know how he feels about her

Does he want to be more than friends?

Maybe he isn’t sure about how she feels

All she knows is that it’s perfect right now

The wall that she’s hidden behind for so long

Has finally come down

She isn’t afraid of these feelings

Not like she used to be

A friend told her one time

If it feels right to be in his arms

Then maybe it’s meant to be after all

But for now she is just going to take it slow

See where things go

Find out how he feels about her

Figure out why she gets so nervous
Because right now it’s a good thing

That’s going on in her life

I should have know

I should have seen it coming

But I didn’t

I should have known that you were hiding something

But I couldn’t figure it out

I should have been able to tell you were lying to me

But I was blinded by my feelings

There was something you said that should have set off red flags
But I just ignored them

I should have known that it wouldn’t work

But I didn’t

I should have known

I just should have known

I was blinded by my feelings 

You made me feel good said all the right things 

That should have been a warning sign of a guy

A guy who doesn’t want a relationship

I was the dumb one to open up

I was the one who made the mistake 

But I let my feelings take over

And lost logical thinking

I just should have known that it wouldn’t work

This was just a poem that i wrote. All comments & Critiques are welcome.